The voice in my head

I have a voice in my head.  It harkens back to years ago when others spoke poorly of me. Words were said. Statements made.  And worst of all I believed them.  On occasion they return and whisper to me.   And sometimes I struggle with these lies.

The other day I was stuck in the muck and mire of such thinking.  Like Alexander I was having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.

Last spring we were sent an invitation to hold a date for a party this summer.  It was dutifully noted on my calendar.  No further word was mentioned.  The week of the event we still had not heard an update.  This is where my glass half-full outlook failed me.

They no longer want us.  They changed their mind and we are not invited.  They have gotten terribly sick and can no longer have this party.  (This was a possibility as there had been health issues in the past.)  I was going to stay home.

It was not only getting muddy inside my head, but downright ugly up there.  This is how negative thinking can explode if left unchecked.

I mentioned our lack of information to Honeydo.  With the voice of insight and wisdom he suggested I contact them.  Duh!  A simple email, a simple reply.  Yes, they were still having the party and yes, they wanted us to come. They had sent out something a month ago and my computer ate it. So off we went and had a great time.

But Honeydo reminded me God has an antidote for this type of thinking.  It is found in the spiritual exercise offered by Paul in Philippians 4:8-9. I like the NLT:

And now, dear brothers and sisters, let me say one more thing as I close this letter.  Fix your thoughts on what is true and honorable and right.  Think about things that are pure and lovely and admirable.  Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.  Keep putting into practice all you learned from me and heard from me and saw me doing, and the God of peace will be with you.

As I hear the voice in my head I don’t have to listen to it.  God offers me another voice, another set of words, another message that speaks of being worthy and valuable.  He tells me I am his beloved.  As I choose to fill my mind with what is authentic, and admirable God is training me to hear his truth.  This training transforms my old self and connects me with the new Christ-like life God has for me.