Today’s post has been written by Debbie Swindoll, Executive Director of Grafted Life Ministries. I appreciate her willingness to share her insights about the emotional impact of this virus situation with this listening audience. Awareness of not only our physical needs, but also our emotional and spiritual needs during this challenging time can be helpful. How might our concerns become invitations to deeper connections with God? Take care folks.
Processing the Emotions of Covid-19
Yesterday I was cooking lunch and my husband, Curt, came in to help. I had chicken on the stove, and he started messing with it. I told him I didn’t want him to turn it over yet. A few minutes later I noticed he was moving the chicken around on the pan. I became uncharacteristically irritated at his help. Our conversation quickly escalated until I “washed my hands” of the responsibility of the chicken being done properly and snippily turned the job over to him.
Why was it so important that I control the cooking of the chicken? This question came to mind a little while later. Entertaining the question connected me with the reality that Covid-19, the slowing of my regular activities, feeling cooped up at home—so many unknowns lay at the root of my desire to control lunch preparation. I was feeling out of control and unconsciously trying to gain some sense of control back. The true condition of my heart was leaking all over lunch.
At the end of Psalm 139, David asked God:
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life. (NLT)
During the next couple months our hearts will be regularly tested by our circumstances, and our anxious thoughts will leak out into our actions, our words and into our relationships with others and God. How might we see this season as an opportunity to more fully understand ourselves and grow closer in dependence on God?
Let me give you some ideas to consider.
As we journey together and apart in the uncertainty and volatility of the next few weeks, it is likely that our emotions will surface more regularly and at times with intensity. How might God be using these times to search our hearts, help us grow to understand our anxieties, and bring them before Him?
May we recognize and embrace God’s invitations in full.